Saturday, October 01, 2005

Test of Character

Welcome Christopher, take a seat, make sure you have a number two pencil. Fill the circles in darkly and completely. Absolutely no cheating will be tolerated. You may begin when the minute hand reaches 5.

Click. The minute hand fires the starter pistol. I'm off.

A test paper. Crisp and foreboding. Sure, it's harmless now, but give it a little time and it'll end up all covered in blood colored ink.

This is wrong. Check.
That's incorrect. Minus 5.
Wrong again. Minus 10.
Here. Half credit.
Here. No credit.
Here too. Some illegible comment.

Is it worth the effort when you know failure is unavoidable? Who wants to be shown all their shortcomings anyhow?

For now, I'll daydream of another place. A place not called home.

The paper looked so nice and neat before I started marking my answers anyhow.

I'd rather just chew on my pencil.
Or doodle.
Or stare out the window.

Remove myself from the threat of red ink.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Choons

Well this is my first post sent in via email. Nothing lengthy here. I
would like to add more to the story soon. Maybe finish Chapter 2 and
get it in a better format for web viewing.

In the meantime, check out some of the tunes on my playlist:

"Another line...in a Crazy World," Loner
"Tribulations," LCD Soundsystem
"Zealots Awaken," Beneath Autumn Sky
"Hide and Seek," Imogen Heap
"Make Love," Daft Punk

...and anything off of Thievery Corp's newest album, "Cosmic Game"


Also, if anyone out there knows how to easily indent in blogger, please let me know...lucid@djlucid.com

Monday, September 05, 2005

New Blog

So I started a class on blogging this semester. I know you're jealous, but if you're interested in checking out my group blog, click here. I post as "Jive Turkey." Don't ask why because I don't know.

Carry on.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Chapter 1

"Your utter disregard for anyone other than yourself is only shadowed by your irreverent greed for that which is not yours to have! Darling, what don't you require?"

"Require? Require?" The tall dark-haired woman shrieked with a certain ferocity, not too unbecoming of her obviously abrasive nature. She sat indian-style amongst a menagerie of pillows on a large bed.

Standing in the doorway, the man took in a deep breath and opened his mouth to say something. After a slight pause his mouth closed abruptly and it was clear he had changed his mind. Whatever witty retort was brewing fell short of making it to his tongue.

The room was styled in an old Victorian theme, with dark shades of purple saturating nearly all the furnishings. Tall windows crawled up to the vaulted ceiling and large ghostly drapes tethered them to the wall. In the center of the room sat an enormous bed so high off the ground it had its own small wooden staircase.

I'm not going to lie, I was anxious for the inevitable skirmish. Not often do they get the chance to showoff this colorful affection they so amicably share with eachother. Holding my breath, I waited patiently for the onslaught.

The broad's name was Juliet Longsbell, his, Jack Warner. Together they might have come off as a modern day Bonnie and Clyde. Real in love. Real dangerous. Juliet's normally keen eyes were weary from the remarkably busy day she'd been through. She wore nothing more than her undergarments, silk and revealing. Attractive and muscular, she was so beautiful that no amount of clothing could fully conceal the curvaceous figure beneath. A freshly lit cigarette hung delicately between her two fingers.

Jack was dressed in his usual attire: a finely pressed suit hidden beneath a cobalt blue trench-coat. He was a man of average height and build. In fact he was average in almost every way, with the exception of his face which consisted of sharp angles and an offensively oversized mustache. Together these features demanded attention and gave him an unspeakable aura of importance.

Unable to imagine how Jack had found her, she coyly tugged her bra strap. "Really Jack, what the hell do you want from me?" she uttered, stern but not without the slightest sprig of desperation.

While frantically negotiating with a stubborn button in an attempt to remove his pants, Jack suddenly realized what he was doing. He had come here to set things straight, to find out the truth. Instead, his intellect lost out to his bodily desires. With the reigns of self-control let loose, his movements became less restricted and more automatic. The button finally forfeited to his tenacious digits, bringing his pants crashing to the floor. He glanced up and focused on Juliet's lips.

It soon became clear that the bout I had expected to witness was either being put on hold, or postponed indefinitely. I suddenly felt foolish for expecting otherwise. My anticipation was quickly drowned by my growing concern of being discovered by Jack. I could almost make out my own worried eyes in the reflection of his meticulously well polished shoes. They poked out menacingly from under his previously worn pants. My grip on the revolver hardened accordingly.


A Clean, formatted verion of this can be found here.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Back to Here

Heading back to B-town in the purple Corolla. The "a" is still missing from the car's title on the trunk. There's a compartment in the dashboard that won't stay closed, even with the application of some withered scotch tape. This is new. So is the way she bites me in bed. I'm not sure what I'm more impressed by: how much she's changed, or how much she's stayed the same.

It's probably best if I don't pursue such trains of thought. Even still, she's here next to me, disturbingly quiet after a long weekend, gripping the wheel with a robotic persistence. We are children reconvening in the same sandbox only this time with new toys, new clothes, and a new sense of self. Everything feels right-ish and I can deal with the changes. It's just hard to ignore the obvious awkwardness of it all.

We dart up 22A. It is a sullen drive and it's difficult to place the cause. Perhaps it's nothing, maybe I'm just trying too hard to label every moment in time. Cataloguing the ups and downs. Indexing the smiles, and cross-referencing the frowns with expressionless glances all in the name of dependence. Emotional security. Relational consistency.

And it all makes me so tired. So many things to look forward to, even more things to appreciate, but the one grey drop of doubt in my lake of emotions is enough to taint it all. Maybe I need more sleep. Maybe I need more death.

Maybe I need to lighten the fuck up. After all, she's going to leave me. Time to pony up. Again. For real this time.